Ive been seeing posts about body shaming lately and they kind of hit home for me. Ive always been overweight and miserable, but this past year ive taken the bull by the horns and taken control of the issue. I can now look in a mirror and see a person who is still overweight but is healthier looking and proud of the hard work ive put in.
It used to be id avoid mirrors at all cost. I was 300+ pounds, with soo many health issues that many days i could hardly get out fo bed. My legs would swell up to where i couldnt find my ankles and barely bend my legs. It wasnt until i was diagnosed with diabetes that i decided i had to make a HUGE change, so i joined weight watchers and started walking and now im down 70 pounds and still losing. Hence why i call myself a loser, its not in a negative term at all but a positive one.
I struggle at times and still binge when im upset but i count everything that goes in my mouth and never let myself go beyond my points. If i binge i simply count it and then eat less or different the rest of the day. Even that cupcake i had last week, i counted it, im not ashamed of the food i eat now, i just eat moderately and watch my portions.
Two months ago my doctor called me the incredibly shrinking woman, and it felt good. I plan on continuing on this path for as long as it takes to get to my goal of 160. Im about 80 pounds away from it but im close to half way there and i know if i lost this much i can lose the rest.
The toughest part was the plateau i had over the past month, i hovered at the same weight for that time and have finally broken through it. How did i do it??? Well i went off the plan for a week and ate how i used to, then went back on track and it seemed to work.
I exercise more, even if im not walking the dogs as much im still doing crunches and other exercises in the house every day and some yoga as well.
The interesting thing is grocery shopping, i love off my protein shakes, slim fast , fruit and vegis. I do have some of the lean cuisine meals that i eat when im wanting regular food, which isnt often as food doesnt even taste good to me most of the time.
So to wrap this up im moving in the rightdirection and it has more been easy but its been worth it, only issue now is clothing, nothing fits, everything is too big, but i am working on selling my old clothing and getting new, or new ish. as while im still losing weight i buy either thrift store stuff or clothes that are really cheap. I refuse to spend much on clothing that i wont be in long. I have some people telling me i should hang on to some of my old too big clothingjust in case but theres no way im going back to that unhealthy self.
