i woke up really early this morning, its 6:30 am and im already starting my writing for the day. this post probably wont be anything special, just a way to wake my brain up and make it start thinking so i can work on my book. Ive really been struggling with it lately and i dont know why...unless its the stress from the idea of the deadline...However in the midst of things ive possibly came up with another idea for an adult series of books...we will see what pans out after i get this first book done.
Heres something that scares me...all my life ive been pushed down..ive never really accomplished anything big unless it was at work. When i was in school if i wanted to quit something my mom always let me so i didnt have that push through things discipline and im trying to create that now with my writing. Hell, its easy to sit down and type out a blog entry but to dedicate myself to 200 plus pages that will e on the bookshelves...its kind of intimidating but i think in the end ill be proud of myself for actually getting it done and seeing if i can make it out there in the big word of writing. Not many authors stand out when you compare it to how many have written and id love to find a way to make a career of this.
One of the reasons i havent been blogging as much lately is that im trying to restrain myself from being so negative. i tend to write best, especially in my blog here, when im upset or something offends me and i have a strong point of view. Maybe i should use this as my ranting place but i also dont want to be seen as someone who only has issues with things.
im an enigma there are so many parts to me, the romantic side that loves nature, animals and quiet times. The hard core side that wants to feel pain, yes, physical pain, it drives me...wakes me up and lets me get all my emotions out. Hmm thats a thought to ponder on...all the different sides to me...i may have to make time to do up a list...
Im glad i decided not to put Bones page on hold. Honestly i only did it because i was being preached at, or at least it felt that way...i can handle it if someone says "ill pray for you" or something simple like that. And since its Bones page i simply say thank you and go to the next comment...but a whole comment of preaching was too much for me the other night. i dont know why i let it get to me but i did.
im glad my headache is finally gone...i was starting to worry since i had had it two days and it showed up the day after i hit my head in that damn fall.
Okay, time for me to get to work on my book again. This post was more about waking my brain up than anything.
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