As I sit here this morning sipping my first cup of coffee I find myself reflecting on things. Im soo super excited about starting college in about a month. I know i can do this. I also know that i have to do other things to keep myself from burning out. So im kicking it into high gear with my running again, playing pathfinder and of course continuing on training my Service Dog.
Yes this means ill be constantly busy but being as ill be enjoying these things, especially since im majoring in journalism ill have a full happy life with people around me that i love. If anyone would have asked me a year ago what i would be doing I dont think any of these things would have been on my list. But today they are and im grateful. I do best when i have a structured life and of course the most important part will be college with Jaspers training being next in line but alone with all of that is my health. See, for me being on Social Security Disability is not a means to an end but just a way to survive until i can get my health manageable enough again to where i can rejoin the workforce.
Running a chapter of the Satanic International Network means a lot to me as well, as does the Sect of the Horned God. While I know that without 3 particular people in my life right now i wouldnt be doing any of this I have to also give much thanks and praise to The Sect, SIN and me being a Satanist. See, its not all about believing theres an actual Satan, i believe that we all have a Satan in us, its how we use that energy that makes us or breaks us and ive used it to my advantage to make myself the best i can be. I dont see road blocks, i see speed bumps that i simply have to slow down for for a second or two. I believe in myself and my own abilities now more than i ever have.
I grew up in a household where if i didnt like doing something i was told i could quit, and i always did, always!!! Now i dont do that. Take the biggest example as of late. Jasper, my Service Dog. I adopted him when he was 4 months old and the only command he knew was sit. 16 months later hes accomplished soo much with me training him that I took him to IHOP to play a game of Pathfinder which probably took 4 hours and had no issues out of him, he was an angel. And I did that, I taught him how to behave, what he can and cant do in public. And as we were leaving there were people commenting that they didnt even know there was a dog in there...Thats one of the best compliments you can get about your Service Dog. Hes my best friend, he blocks people from approaching me, has learned to turn off lights and even with all of this that he does his best friend is a 2 pound kitten.
Enough on this post for now, i have a topic in my head i cant get out that cant be worked into this one.
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