i find myself getting very frustrated today, i just cant move fast enough. The past 3 days ive been like this and i try and make myself slow down only to start shaking so i get back up and start working on something else. The first day of this i found myself scrubbing cupboard doors, the second day or yesterday i pretty much cleaned non stop including going through all of my clothes, even the ones stored away and figureing out what i want to keep or get rid of or pack back up for a later date. Today it was fixing dinner , which was a time consuming dish, cleaning the fish bowl, working on laundry and now im forcing myself to sit down and write all of this out before i explode. i still have laundry to keep working on today and a blanket to get crocheted plus a dog to bathe...so ill be pretty busy up until bedtime if i even sleep. But i need to sleep because tomorrow Bones goes to the vet at 11.

im driving myself crazy, i almost feel manic, i was diagnosed with bi polar a few years ago than i had another doc tell me it was just PTSD, i dont know what it is all i know is while i like being productive my body is paying for it big time, im hurting like hell, my back and legs are killing me and i feel like i could run a marathon at the same time...this is too fucked up.