Life has its twists and turns and for me lately there have been quite a few. Today im sitting here in a dress with make up on hair done, playing WoW, crocheting and writing. it seems as if i cant slow down lately.
Doors i thought had closed havent opened but have started to crack to where i can now see light where darkness was before. i think the hardest thing ive done in the past few months was a self tattoo removal. Its not even about removing it its about giving up and realizing that the one i wanted to share the rest of my life with is no longer in the picture. This saddens me greatly and im hoping to just once see him again.
im working on moving on lately and im doing a fairly good job at it but it still leaves me wanting more in areas. If only i could combine 3 people id have the perfect Master, mate and friend for life.
im facing something really tough in a day or so...im about to run out of smokes.,, i could buy more but instead im going to quit...they recently found fluid around my heart and i kind of want to live so im trying to do what i can to stay alive.
Thats just a quick update and i plan on writing more later today. i think im in the first true manic phase and i cant sit still long so im off to do something else for a while.
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