To listen or not to listen, that’s the question.
My doctor “suggests” that I not have any more children but everything in my heart tells me to. I know I have lupus and that may affect everything and I had a hard pregnancy last time but I don’t care. Im on the verge of being the parent of an 18 year old and maybe that’s why im feeling how I am but I also hear my clock ticking away and its killing me. I want another child. I want to know what its like to have a child and have the daddy with me.
Whats conflicting is that im a little, and just tonight I was called “Daddys little slut princess” those words are powerful for me and really make me want to give him everything I can, including another child.
I plan on researching everything I can on Lupus and pregnancies. Who knows maybe my body wont even let it happen but if it does then im ready for it, or maybe im in a midlife crisis at this point.
I see my doctor next week and a specialist in a few weeks and hopefully I can get more answers.
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